Wednesday, October 04, 2006

I'm Alive... Looking for Yoga

yo·ga (yō'ga) n.
~ A Hindu discipline aimed at training the consciousness for a state of perfect spiritual insight andtranquilityy.
~ A system of exercises practiced as part of this discipline to promote control of the body and mind.

I need to recenter myself. I feel as if I need to learn how to breathe again. I haven't posted for quite a while. My "being" has transferred into a constant of PAIN (see some of my journaling on that at This is a Blog I have created to put into words what frustrations I am going through lately.

This week, after visiting with a new Pain Clinic and doctor, I once again have some temporary relief through medication. I hate drugs. But, would eat shit-on-a-stick now if I thought it would relieve some of my pain. I'm not going into my "pain" in this blog. This blog is for the positive things in my life.

What I want to share with you is my desire to begin the practice of Yoga. I have often thought about it, but never given it much more thought than that. At this point, with meds helping to lower my pain, I thought it would be a good time to test these waters. I do meditate at times, but not religiously. I, at one time in my life, could slip into meditative state for a few minutes quickly. However, this I learned through a study of biofeedback, not yoga. I would do it on a bus ride downtown. Hell, for a break during work hours, I would "disconnect" while sitting on the john in a quiet stall. Now, I find it hard to find that "place" (and I don't mean the stall...).

I hope Yoga reinstates what was once "me." If any of you have had experience with this practice, please share with me what you have found it to do for you.

OK... I am off to try and recapture a bit of my life today. I have committed to going out to lunch with a friend. My pain today is lower than it has been for quite a while. My mind is a bit fuzzy from some of my new meds, but I think I can do it, do it, do it... without thinking "I need to get out of here so I can cry because my pain-is-so-bad-I-can-no-longer-smile kind of way." This little social event is a small part of what I have lost over the past couple of years... just "being" with friends and laughing.

Oh, and I'm planning on getting a DVD on Yoga today also. I think the best place for me to start Yoga is by myself at home. A quiet, cozy place where I can just B - R - E - A - T - H - E

P.S. Thanks to all of you to have dropped me a line or two while I was away. I means more than you can imagine...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #11

Here is the 11th and last blot in the series of 11 I found online. I'm planning on making my own blots in various ways and starting another blog with just ink blots. Hope to see you there !

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Gee... oh what is geocaching?

What is geocaching you ask? That's what I wondered a few months ago when my husband wanted a new, expensive GPS.

He rides bikes with our daughter on Sundays and would tell me of geocashes they looked for here and there. Actually, they found a couple, even without a GPS. That's when he started to want a sophisticated GPS system because it's what you really need to find these well hidden statches. And, even the exact coordinates still have you searching.

I really didn't get into it, but figured if I wanted to spend some time with my husband, I'd better at least give it a try. I love Treasure Hunts. Have any of you been in one of those? You are given clues and puzzles to solve to find items that will give you clues to the next item, etc. etc. The winner who find the most clues the quickest is the winner and usually wins a prize. It's a big undertaking to plan a Treasure Hunt. With geogaching, it's like everyone pitches in.

You can find where these cashes are hidden at The Official Global GPS Cache Hunt Site. The biggest clue in finding these cashes is the GPS address. In case you don't know what a GPS address looks like, here is an example: N 39° 38.155 W 084° 09.460 You can get further clues if you wish at the site. Believe me, you will need them...

They are graded at different levels as to how difficult they are to find. There are many different kinds such as Traditional Cache, Multi-Cache (offset Cache), Letterbox Hybrid, Event Cache, Mega-Event Cache, and Mystery or puzzle caches, each having their levels.

My husband and I trekked off in search of a few traditional and one Letterbox. We found a couple micro where there are only little tubes with journal logs, 2 regular, which have trinkets in them, plus the log, and one Letterbox, but I still don't understand the differences for this type. The journal type is simple. All you do is put the date and sign your name. Lots of work to just sign your name on a rolled, often beaten-up piece of paper I think... Perhaps if you read all the names you might see someone you know I guess.

My husband had the GPS contraption and would go off in that direction. I kind of wandered in the vicinity looking under rocks, in trees, feeling under nasty metal rails where I was sure I would find a nest of something or another... My husband found all of them dang it. Actually, I'm so blind that even when he pointed one out to me snuggled in a dark corner I didn't see it.

What I found the most fun were the caches with trinkets in them. It was interesting to dig through the "junk" in the containers and make one of them your special treasure. We didn't come prepared with "gifts" as it were, but I pulled a beautiful gold hairpin with a rhinestone on it from my hair and placed in one of the containers. I thought it was beautiful and hope someone finding it will pull it out and use it. In a silly way, it will be like a part of me sharing someone else's life without really meeting them. Weird (as my husband likes to call me), I would feel that way. We dug around in the car and came up also with a little sample tube of sunblock for men. I know someone will find that special...

After our "hunts" we decided it would be nice to get some little gifts to place in the larger cashes with trinkets. We had so much fun buying this "stuff." It was an excuse to buy all those little "how-cool-is-this-but-do-I-need-junk" for other peoople. We placed a $.50-$1.50 limit on everything. We now have a little bin of about 75 such precious gifts as little flash lights, wind-up toys, puzzles, baby slinkys, playing cards, little balls that explode each time you bounce them, marbles, little frisbees that fold up into the size of a coaster, christmas ornaments and other such useful items. The bin looks like a bucket of party favors for a kid's birthday party.

Now, by this time, after trekking around in just a 10 mile radius of our home for over 5 hours and shopping I was shuffling along at a slow pace. I have dealt with a lot of physical pain issues for the past few years (in another blog of mine) and I should have given it up after tromping through the woods for one cache where my husband pretty much had to drag me around over creeks, up hills, etc. I can't believe I actually got sucked into this "hobby" of my husbands. He just enjoys it so much and with my physical limitations these days I figured what harm could be done in just walking around? haha He is bike riding with our daughter again today and since he is usually home by now I assume he geocashing with her. Has this GPS system created a monster?

Finally, the last step in geocashing is to log on the web site whether you found the cashe or not. Although, I could hardly move by then, I resolutely finished the task by creating my geo account and giving a summary of each of my finds. I know I shouldn't really claim them as "found" because my husband found each of them, but I did give him credit for the find in each of my posts.

Long post, I know, but wanted to blog this out in case anyone out there in blogland also has done this and would like to share their experiences. I'm hoping we can get some friends and/or family involved and go on road trips in search of bigger cashes. This just might be a way to bond with others...

OK, now I'm sore in places where I wasn't yesterday. Guess it's time for a whirlpool bath?

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #10

OK, so I lied... this is my tenth inkblot in a series of eleven.

I found one more in this series. I have also been playing around with making my own. I think I might create a separate blog just for inkblots. I love to look at them and get other opinions from people. It's all a matter of changing your perspective to see other things. Rather like interpreting people, don't you think?

Friday, July 28, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #9

Here is the ninth ink blot in my series of ten.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006


As I browse Blogland, I notice many gifted writers. Be it just an engaging post or truly a work of poetry, there are hundreds. I love words... Scary to admit, but when I was a child in school one of my favorite books to read was the Dictionary. I remember when the teacher asked us as a class to look up words during "Dictionary Drill", I was always the first one to raise my hand to say I found the word. After a while, I realized being the first to raise your hand all the time wasn't such a fun thing after all. But, that's another story.

As I browse these Blogs in awe, reading so many entertaining posts, I thought why not give this poetry thing a try... However, I would love to engage those stopping by my blog to add to its content a verse or two. You must forgive my rough attempt at poetry. I don't know a Ottava rima from a Quatrain (and, yes, I looked those up).

Please feel free to add a verse to my first attempt at poetry. Be patient with me. Who knows? I may actually learn something from those who stop by. I hope you post. I can't wait to see how creative you can be.

In the wee hours of the night
I decided to go a bloggin.
Many comments I did make.
Oh curse verification login.

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #8

Here is the eighth ink blot in my series of ten.

Friday, July 07, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #7

Here is the seventh ink blot in my series of ten.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006


We spent Monday at my daughter's house. This is our first summer with our grandson, who is finally at an age of awareness where everything is a discovery for him. What fun to watch him learn !!

He met his first watermelon and was all at once frustrated because he could not pick it up, then curious as to what this big round green ball was. Once he had a taste of the big green ball with its juicy red center, he had a friend for life.

What wonder in being around a new little life. It's like discovering things all over again. Tis a good thing we have a new digital camera that will hold hundreds of pics. One of the reasons we got a new digital was the faster shutter speed. With the old one there was too much of a wait between pics and many good moments would be missed. This "watermelon" collage was done "click, click, click" and I got this wonderful series I would have otherwise missed.

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #6

Here is the sixth ink blot in my series of ten.

Friday, June 30, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #5

Here is the fifth ink blot in my series of ten.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Dream State #2

OK, maybe I should also be talking about my dreams in this blog... Had another strange vivid one last night. Maybe it was the wine?? Anyhow, in this dream a BIG fat spider was constantly following me around. Scared me to death. However, I soon realized "she" was trying to get me to help her. She was having babies and wanted me to find a safe place for her and her babies. I took her (with her new babies) to a small furnace room that was warm. But, for some reason, this room would also on ocassion generate a noise that killed all her babies. I awoke almost in tears because I thought I had failed her. Now, this one did verge on being a nightmare. But what has been the oddest thing about my past two dreams are how vivid they are. Maybe since I am resting better and perhaps sleeping deeper, these were always the dreams lurking beneath. As Susan suggested, perhaps I should try to learn more about my strange dreams I've had this week.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Dream State

OK, I just had to make a quick post. I just had a freaky dream. I mean, I have unusual dream a lot of times to begin with. Like vivid dreams of being in locations I've never been and waking up wondering if it was true. I woke up this morning with another vivid dream unlike most I have.

I think I must watch too much SciFi. Like a lot of dreams some things were vague, but one thing I strongly remember is a friend of mine, Alan, was in this dream and wearing some type of ear phones that had little metal flaps on them, rather like antenna but square.

He called these flaps EMG's (that's a familiar anagram lol). However, though meaning the same, it had a totally different concept this time. Alan, with certain body movements and thoughts could communicate verbally without talking and could create imagery with his mind that we all could view. How strange it THAT? When questioning some other people in this secret building they said "You were told you would find out when you were ready..." OK, then I really got creeped out and woke up.

We all have weird little dreams and I've had my share. But usually my weird dreams aren't this vivid and wake me up. It wasn't a nightmare... I wonder what my subconscious was trying to tell me????

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #4

Here is the fourth ink blot in my series of ten.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Monster Cookies

I love to cook and baking is my favorite thing to do. I often get requests for my baking, especially around Christmas. I remember the days when I worked full time, was raising a 5 year old, and still found time to bake a dozen different cookies each year during the holidays to take into work. Where did I find the energy??? Was I insane???

Although I don't bake as much as I used to, the one thing I always get requests for are my Monster Cookies. They are the BEST cookies I've ever tasted. They are a blend of oatmeal cookie, chocolate chip cookie, and peanut butter cookie. All three my favorites... It's a good thing this recipe makes about 6 dozen HUGE cookies. Each time I make them I quickly run out as I pass out a dozen here and there to my friends.

I spent the afternoon today baking Monster Cookies and I thought I would share this recipe with you and hope you all have a chance to try them! I have set out a snack for you in case you care to stop by. Cookies and milk for now - and after you rinse your glass out, fill it with wine and forget all the calories you just consumed...


1 cup butter softened
2 cups white sugar
2 cups packed brown sugar
3 cups peanut butter
6 eggs
1 ½ tsp white corn syrup
1 ½ tsp vanilla
9 cups oatmeal (not instant)
4 tsp baking soda
2 cups coarsely chopped walnuts
½ pound M&Ms
½ pound dark chocolate chunks - (use your favorite dark choc – I have used many different kinds of choc – I like Lindt choc bars)

Preheat oven to 350°. In large bowl cream together the butter, white sugar, brown sugar, and peanut butter until smooth. Beat in eggs two at a time, then stir in corn syrup and vanilla. Into this mixture, blend in the oatmeal, baking soda, chocolate and nuts. (Tip: I use disposable gloves and mix with my hands.) Form mixture into large balls and place 3” apart on ungreased cookie sheet. Bake 12-15 mins and let cool on baking sheet before removing to wire rack to cool completely.


Saturday, June 24, 2006

WHAT DO YOU SEE ?? Ink Blot #3

Here is the third ink blot in my series of ten.